Mirror Image Pt. 2

So, a continuation of the past Mirror Image discussion, over here. This one will be more focused on the emotional side as last time it was merely a footnote.

I realize that my post was still largely abstract? As most of my thoughts are horrendously abstract, and verbalizing them tends to be a pain in the ass. Really even more so when it comes to writing stories as when I do that my mind tends to move faster than my fingers and what ends up on paper tends to be pretty bad... Hiring Editor? xD Anyways the point is bare with me as I try to beat a sensible explanation out of myself, heh.

Like I was saying before, I have two of what I've come to understand as completely different personality and behavior sets. Logic vs Emotion. Facts vs Intuition. Coldness vs Romance. And the fact of the matter is that they are far too separate at this moment in time for me to attempt to explain one or the other by using simple explanations, I'll try to show more examples.

I tend to find that Idealistic side tends to remain in the shadows, merely nagging at the back of my head whenever I have a moments rest until it sees something it wants... See: Xenia/Xenia rant. At which point it completely overpowers all common sense and I rush in head first. Granted, I rush in head first no matter what when I do things, because there's no point in doing anything otherwise for me, but in general this path ends up being increasingly foolish. I do not work well when under the control of emotions, and I dare say most people don't, so most people will be able to understand what I mean. But at the same time, under emotional control I tend to end up making life much more entertaining and I end up getting closer to a middle ground, so does that mean I need to go completely ape shit or fall madly completely in love or obsessed or hateful in order to truly accomplish a balance? I would hope not o_o

But on the other hand, Logic alone leads me to a defeatism mentality. It leads me to give up on everything and push away, hide back in my shell from humanity.

But what I've seemed to notice is that lately, and generally in times of inner turmoil, I change back and forth within minutes, not entirely sure whether I'm coming or going at times.Then again, I always do stupid shit so can this just be considered an excuse? Dunno. Just know I wish life had a rewind button sometimes... I'd end up abusing it every other day since I tend to live life in fastforwards xD

Expect a Pt. 3